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| Artwork from the Sevent Seer by Maja Larson, A story inspired by my work with the Tree of Life |
I really didn’t expect to finish up with last weeks Archetype; I ‘knew’ it would extend into this week. Karma after all, knows no boundaries.
So this week’s journey began with this knowledge that this weeks lessons would still entail, testing. As well as taking a hard look at what I have been ‘nourishing’ my Involution with. Well I tell ya, it’s sure not with Sleep.
And as much as I ‘knew’ and recognized how important it is to get some sleep, it just seemed futile to even try to get a nap in. This morning when I woke up with my Right lymph node in my throat swollen, well now I am AWARE of what lack of sleep can do to our bodies.
I took a mini nap with the baby on the couch, and applied Reiki to the area and drank a lot of water. It is less swollen, but still there. I think a nap today is in order! I will have to enlist the aid of my Hubby this afternoon, if the kids are getting on board with Mama’s nap.
So along side my sleep deprivation I learnt a great deal about, how I function under pressure, and whether it’s time for me to take a look at those coping mechanisms and discern if they apply to the old or new me. Some coping strategies can stay and some need to go.
For example, dwelling on Frustration, gots to go. My efforts to create a second page, that wasn’t a fan page, for my work on facebook, just ended up confusing A LOT of people, myself included, and a much admired friend was the voice of reason. I deleted said account, and solved the problem of my photo album privacy issues, by slowly and painfully putting in the 50 or so close family and friends on the custom list. So that is done and I feel much better. Still frustrated with my Copyright violations with my Video Study Guides in the Tree of Life; A living Oracle focus group, but they were repetitive and a bit un inspiring anyway. My aim to make sure All the art work and imagery I use be entirely mine means I have some more stock to create.
I think for summer I will engage in a photo collecting quest for the 11 archetypes, so that I have more footage. I am still on the hunt and creating music for the videos, but am not in such a hurry anymore. PATIENCE is a virtue of the Silent Self and that is next week, so it’s timely to apply some. It’s also a very healing coping mechanism. Especially with 2 young kids. I found that trying to work with them and deal with the ‘setbacks’ on line very challenging, and had numerous ‘pep talks’ to keep a balance with the two. Shutting the computer off helped, as did deactivating the second account.
Being an example is a strong aspect to this archetype, we are all our own leaders, believing in ourselves is necessary to allow us to help others believe in themselves. What I do right now, my daughter is soaking up like a sponge. And I woke up to that this week. How I cope with self created stress is going to give her a blueprint of how she can cope, so ….in light of that I have revisited my impatience and verbalizing of said frustration.
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| Reiki Healing Art for Public Use inspired this week. By Maja Larson 2011 © |
Yesterday was a good time to put it all into practice. We were having a Yard Sale. The Great Spirit must have been in our space, as we actually picked the perfect weekend. A week full of frigid temperatures, rain, and disorganization, ( I was still discovering via the Restrained Self (5) what DIDN’T work, so going through all of our Stuff was an initiation into “ Just DO IT!” attitude! This weekend being the first of the ‘summer’, meant everyone, schools and community organizations were having garage sales. So even though the only signs the dollar store had were tiny, it wouldn’t matter, we would be seen. A house at the end of our street was having an open house, and another family garage sale was on our street, we wouldn’t be missed. Its also the Free Stuff Weekend here in Winnipeg, were you can put your items on your curb and people looking for things can just take it away. We ended up dropping of the items that didn’t sell at the Salvation Army anyway, and so did many others by the pile at the drop off door.
8:30am saw the first van roll up. Man, there are some diehard yard salers!! Yesterday could have been very ugly the potential was all there, but it didn’t interest me, my pain body wasn’t all up and in anyone’s face. Rather, the suns warm rays eased our anxieties as did smiling at the folks coming to check us out. Sharing a smile and a good mood with another is very en-lightening. The baby napped the preschooler played with the kids that came with parents and sold items. She was right in there with some Hutterite women who came by. We weren’t interested in making money, just in creating space in our space. SO people got a lot of deals and through ins. By 3pm we were packing up the unsold items for good will. We made enough to buy our daughter the Princess bike with training wheels she has been drooling over for some time. Which made all happy.
Later even though I could barely keep my eyes open, the kids and I were horsing around and I laughed, and felt something shift. Inside my chest. I worry A LOT, I know its counter productive in a big way to the Law of Attraction, and work to ease up on it, but all the same old habits die hard. This laugh stretched something in there, opened it up. I sat with the discomfort for a few minutes. It reminded me of the tearing or stretching feelings during labor. Painful but necessary... so I took a deep breath, and filled that space with it, and it opened a bit more. I looked at my children, and smiled and felt the moment with them, and finally slowed down. And just enjoyed that moment with all of myself. No matter what hardships we feel we are enduring in our lives, there is always space for the divine, always time for a laugh and a smile, and letting go. When I let go of all that was stressing me out, and just accepted what was in front of me, I could feel and see the heaven in my earth. From my current perspective, the ultimate aim of our Divine Spirit is manifesting in the Physical world, so there is no reason to try and escape the world as it stands for me or for you. The key is accepting it. The Nourishment for the soul lies in acceptance and love, not avoidance and grief. We might suffer to grow, but we LIVE when we let go.
The path between the 4th and 5th archetypes is represented by the Tarot card STRENGTH. It’s usually depicted with a woman holding open the jaws of the Lion. Symbolically you could spend hours analyzing, but my aim is personal growth. So for me, embracing my role whatever it happened to be and going with the flow, brought me around to my true source of power and nourishment. My soul and its music. Music was the final key in my lessons of the path of Strength, it sooths my heart and opens it at the same time. Just like Reiki. So whenever I felt half crazy last week, I remembered a tool I learnt with the early years of my daughter. Putting on my MP3 player and listening. I am not exactly sure why, but it heals in ways I can’t explain. I have always loved music, as it can move me, create potentials for shifts. As a kid, music was everywhere. Even now in the house, the kids sleep better to music, I sleep (lol) to the same via the baby monitor. Music is Magic, it is the sound of the word of God or the Great Spirit’s light. Even black holes make music. The world is not a silent place. Music for me is a gateway to my inner world. Singing especially, though I don’t enjoy hearing my own voice, I have found my self consciousness vanishes when I sing to my children, so I do it often and with great pleasure, watching them smile changes me for the better every time.
I watched Oprah’s greatest lessons show this week, and at one point she spoke with an Author, who said that you need to ask yourself, when your child comes into a room or you enter, do you smile? OR does your critical self emerge?
A good question and I knew the answer.
The 4th archetype is also a celebratory energy. Celebrate your kids when they walk in the room, don’t wait till life changes and you realize it via suffering, learn from the lessons of others. My daughter is at a very challenging age, and sometimes the critical side of me rises too fast, and it hurts us both. So for now, I have been celebrating her presence, and learning to apply it in an every widening ripple. And when it all seems too much, I can take a deep breath leave the room and keep breathing. Without breath you can’t do anything, and when I am stressed it definitely gets shallow.
Actualizing the lessons in my everyday, providing an anchor for my divine spark, can be challenging, should be challenging!
My everyday life is my anchor and my salvation. Trial and error lead the way. Having purged a bit and made more space, I feel open Restored, still need a nap though; my Gang is very clear on this. I feel more stable and ready to complete the integration of the life nourishing energies on the Pillar of Mercy on the Tree of life.
My copy of Frank.L. Baum’s classic Ozma of Oz, caught my eye this week and I think I will treat myself to the feast it provides for my imagination, and pursue old and new interests that stimulate and feed my soul – spirit connection.
I also have a whole list of shows I have missed amidst all this work on my PVR….that sounds relaxing.
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